so much to say....so much to say....

here we have been standing for a long long time....with so much change and so much to say!! i'll start from the beginning, make a few comments here and there, and try to get up to speed with today...no promises only hopes!!

tr and i met february 16, 2002 setting: bowling alley next to my grandpa's restaurant i was a little reluctant to start dating anyone, though i was definitely interested in tr. so tr decided to speed up my reluctance by making a deal...he stated that if he were to bowl three strikes in row, i would have to go on a date with him...never one to turn down a deal, i agreed. who would have thought that he was a great bowler and it would be a breeze for him. we went on date a few days later and since that night, i have been in love with the man of my dreams.

january 20, 2006 several years of dating and lots of learned experiences later, tr decided to take me to eureka springs, ar for a dinner with him and my mom at my favorite little restaurant there, ermilios. that day i received a call from my mom canceling stating that she was going to the movies with some of her work buddies and would not be able to go eat. i definitely thought it strange and tried to convince her to come with us, but she refused. i just thought she wanted to give tr and i time together since he was traveling with his job and living in north little rock and i was in springdale busy with my job as a school social worker. so tr meets me at my work and sees my kiddos before i run by my house to freshen up. we leave for eureka and we pass my brother on the road and he grins really big and waves...very strange if you know my bro. then i use tr's phone and notice that his last call was to my sister. again, i think strange. to back up the night before i had tried calling tr several times and he had stated that he was busy with work...i just decided that everyone was strange and we set off for our fun night!! i'm never one to worry when a good meal is in the near future. as we are driving to eureka, we get stuck in a long line of bumper to bumper traffic...tr begins to sing christmas carols and looks as if he had been on a long run with all of the sweat on his face...by this time i just ask what is up and he states that he wanted to sit at the park by the basin hotel and take pics before the sunsets and this has him worried. i'm like okay there is no need to stress, i'm sure we'll make it, even though, in my mind, i'm thinking what is going on. we get to the park and he asks me to carry his camera while he gets out his guitar. i started to get a little embarrassed because he was going to play his guitar in the park and he was wanting me to take his picture. however, i knew it was eureka so i thought who cares. as he began to play, i didn't recognize the song and noticed that the words were about us, so i began to listen intently and at the end, he sang...tara, will you marry me!! of course, i said yes and there were tears.

on april 20, 2007 tr and i again drove to eureka by ourselves to meet all of our nearest and dearest for our rehearsal and dinner. it was a night of great food and fellowship and one of the best nights of sleep i have ever had.

april 21, 2007 i was so nervous, i had not seen or spoken to tr all day and when it was time for our pictures i was so nervous. everyone left us but the photographer and the moment i stepped out into the thorncrown worship center, i saw the man that i will spend the rest of my life loving, sharing, and learning. we had our celebration dinner at the crescent hotel and let me tell you no tales of ghost in the hotel kept me nervous...it was what i thought would be the most amazing day of my life...we honeymooned in jamaica and began our life as mr. and mrs. tr and i have always loved hard and furious...there is such a passion between us and i can honestly say that i have found in him everything that i have ever dreamed of....corny as it is!! tr and i brought together our four-legged children and together we began a journey as a family. one of the things that always worried me and was something that we had looming over us was that i have severe endometriosis and was always told that getting pregnant would be difficult to say the least if not impossible. so, after speaking with the doctor, we decided that we would try to have a baby, so that in a year (when the dr said we would try different therapies) we would know if i could get pregnant. the dr said that it might take a few months for the effects of the meds to wear off from my endometriosis treatments and that if i did not get pregnant we would try everything in a year.

september 8, 2007 tr and i were in nwa for krystal's birthday and we were going out with a few of our friends. krystal, kari beth and i were going out to celebrate krystal's birthday and pregnancy at bordino's while tr and aaron (kb's spouse) went to an engagement party upstairs at bordino's. after lots of girl talk and fun, we decided to go up and get the boys. a man came up to krystal and asked if she were pregnant (she did not look it at all)because when she walked into the room there was this glow about her, she said yes. we all were laughing and then out of nowhere, clayton, a friend of ours, goes well if krystal is pregnant than tara must be too because she has the same glow!! well, we all laughed...tr and i looked at eachother and thought if only...

september 10, 2007 i had began to feel funny so i decided to take a pregnancy test and to my astonishment, it said i was!! i called tr upstairs and he could not believe it...we were having a baby...definitely then i thought this is the best day of my life with no knowledge of what was to come. after several months of nasty all day sickness, i started to feel better. then one thursday night in december, i was home by myself and began to have horrible pains. i called tr and asked him to come home from his bi-weekly guys night. the pain became so bad that the oncall dr said to go to the er, we were so scared. we immediately found out that the baby was okay and that they thought i was having pain associated with a kidney infection. that night (really morning) while getting an ultrasound to check out my kidneys, we found out that we were having a little girl. i then thought that even through all of the pain and suffering, i had just experienced the best night of my life. i became extremely swollen early on and became tired of constantly hearing how big i looked and that there was no way that i would make it to my due date. however, god has perfect timing and knew all along when our precious little girl would be here to brighten our lives and unfortunately we sat and waited while my due date came and went.

on tuesday, may 20, 2008 tr and i again made a journey together alone to st. vincents hospital to check in and get ready for the induced birth of our little girl.

may 21, 2008 is and will always be the best day of my life!! our little adleigh grace krile, came into our lives after all day of intense labor on her mom's part. all i can remember about her c-section is seeing her for the first time and knowing that god is good!!

we still are amazed at how much god has blessed us and can not remember what life was like before her!!

the purpose of all of this is for us to be able to one day share with her, all of the wonderful memories we have had, are having, and will have due to god giving us this miracle.